Your attitude of living is like a sphere, and it is bounded, bounded by
your knowledge, bounded by your perspective, bounded by your habits,
you can only have your attitude changed if you can jump to another
shell.

Creativity, I lack.

Not in a good condition recently, both physical and mentally.
Somehow it should not be an excuse for anything.

Planned to have great fun in the sem break, though i have planned, it didnt go with my plan.

wanna finish a book, but i just read few pages
wanna play basketball, but i only played once
wanna restore my health, but i got sick few days ago till now
wanna hang out with Uni frds, but ……..

Whatever, the less promise i make to myself, the happier i can be, i suppose so.
I should dream less.

I want a regular eating habit
I want a regular resting period
I want a better health.

When i have been seeing how my fellows were injured by the opponents team, i wonder if i should play chivalry or eye for an eye.

Most of them just swing and think they are cool and invincible while neglecting the safety of the others.

Is victory that important?

記性好並不是好事, 只因人生不如意事十常八九
心思細密會令人有機心, 多疑, 最後自尋煩惱
觀察力強縱然可使人察言觀色, 但亦同時帶來無奈和空虛

道德沒有定義,只有共識
自己凡事能放開一點,就少一點煩惱,多一分快樂

只是,的確

難得糊塗

Somebody, say i am bastard, and i will admit it.

Fame, Wealth, Love, Family, Dream, and a lot of sth else
what do you want from this world most?
I’ve got no idea, and I also dont know in what way i should live.

Just be myself, I can just be who I am and live with honour and no
regret but somehow people would think i am not easy-going and get 
me ignored.

To be a dog, it could gain me some more face and respect and i can be
welcome for most of the situation, but still dont feel right to take it
due to my little conscience.

相規以善, 和而不同
It only applys to “friends", so…… I’d better keep my mouth shut and turn a blind eye to some good deeds.

Some ppl said i speak less than i was in the past, while i think i bull shit more after Sep.
Anyway, in order to reduce and minimize the disturbance to the others, I
should keep quiet unless I was invited to any conversation.

Passive as i used to be or the more will I be? Maybe, I am not sure.

To die in vainity or to die in vain.

What do you think?

Suddenly think of what ar foon has said, though she would be joking at that time, i really think what she has said is right.

do you know what i am thinking and care about?
anyway, i know you will never have any interest on it, whatever.

why pretend?

have been being sick continuously since 8th Dec, 2004

most of the time, i cant take control, i can only shape myself to fit
in; i always believe in one statement : the fittest survive.

I DONT WANT TO EAT ALONE.

when can i have my voice back?

Betrayal can be forgiven, but not forgotten.
Respect will I pay to everyone, including my enemies, but not traitors.

Anyway, you dont have to come up front to apologize to me. Instead,
show me your sincerity and repentance by your good deeds in the future
if you think i am worthy to be your friend.

In fact, you may not be a traitor, as you havent treated  me as
your frd at the beginning, so i just put my trust on you wrongly.
Nevermind, i beg you to let me know if it is the case, so that you dont
have to act in such an insincere manner everytime you see me.

Dont say i am mean, i just dont want to be betrayed again, and you cant cover nor reduce your betrayal by giving me a bad name.

I know what you have said, when you have told, who you have talked to.

I ‘ve been knowing for long. I just dont show it.

Finally i can catch up to write an entry b4 the end of the first day of 2005, suck PC

Remember the same time of last year, i was killing my time by staying
at home, taking no revision as a repeater. Then AL, after that, didnt
go anywhere in summer, met frds studying abroad, and finally some other
frds went to study abroad, then i moved to tsing yi and i got into
PolyU.

Meet some new frds in Poly, which i cherish them, however i used a
wrong way to communicate, and so, frankly, we are not as close as i
have highly expected. Due to this, i cherish my old frds more, not
saying i cherish my old frds becoz no one doesnt ignore me in poly, nor
i dont care about my new frds in Poly, i just feel friendship is
utterly treasuable and paramount in my life as i grow older and older.

Honestly i am not pleased with my living, but who does?

no more useless complaints will i make to anyone, as they are what they are,
useless complaints.

Make a difference, I will, I dare, and I swear.